Friday, March 2, 2012

Scars and Wounds

Growing up can be hard.  It can leave a person with a lot of scars.  Physical, Sexual, Emotional.  As I venture into the deeper parts of me, the scars are becoming more apparent.  Although, I don’t know if I would call them scars.  They’re more like wounds.  A scar is something we’re left with, after a wound has healed.  It tells a story.  It reminds us of something we made it through. Something painful, something traumatic.  Wounds are not like that.  They are fresh, raw, open.  They leave us exposed.  They require a tender, gentle, understanding touch.  Yeah, I have wounds….
Now, they say that time heals all wounds.  That has not been my experience.  Some of my wounds are 35 years old. I have been able to push them down really deep. Cover them with a ton of bandages. But underneath, they are there still wounds.  Fresh, raw, open.   

Some of the wounds I have from childhood are related to my femininity and sexuality.  The two are so interconnected, it is hard to separate them.  For my entire adult life, I have struggled with these issues and the process is slow going.  As I unravel the bandages and expose what is underneath, Jesus has tenderly put salve on my wounds and healing has begun.  Someday, these wounds will become scars. Beautiful Scars…

7 comments:

  1. Holy cow with the heavy, deep,and real. This is going to be a great ride to freedom! Can you hear Mel Gibson yelling on his horse?

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  2. This made me cry. I told you that already but I am so glad that you are letting him turn your wounds into scars. They are beautiful and so are you. Thank you for being such an amazing woman of God and a sign post that always points to Him.

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    1. you are gonna make me cry.... maybe that is a blog title, "Damb-it! Quit Making me Cry." LOL

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    2. First of all, Rick is not reading this. I can't seem to sign up without him though...we go together. Secondly, how do I become a member? And one more thing....THIS IS VERY GOOD! I am honored to be named among your friends. I am privileged to walk with you. Thank you for sharing and caring. You are amazing, Kathy.

      "Just when the caterpillar thought her world was over, she became a butterfly."

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  3. Your wounds are many and they're deep. I don't know why I've been lucky enough to see some of them, but I have. With our love and trust and open hearts, we're all here to love and heal you. Your scars are only adding to a beauty that's hard to even express to you.

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  4. Not sure how i deserve a friend like you....thanks Ali for your love and support.

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  5. You are not alone. Don't ever forget that.

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